Life is a fairy tale!

When I was a little girl, I dreamed to become one of those Disney princessses; pretty, innocent and ending up living happily ever after!

I'm pretty sure every young girl has dreams like mine. A beauty with a perfectly good heart, a life supported by good friends, and yes prince charming on the white horse! (I mixed Cinderella, Mulan, Sleeping Beauty and Snow White all together.)

As I grew older, things of this world I live in take me to the opposite side. Fairly tales do not seem to exist anymore. I felt like I wasn't pretty enough. I wasn't like those long-legged girls in the magazines.  Friends did hurt me. Major heartbreaks numbed my very heart. Looking around, THAT was nothing close to my childhood princess dream,NOTHING! I did not feel like a princess, not even close.

Despite the torrents of rejection and pain, deep down inside I hoped for something better than the world could offer. I still wanted to be a princess, not a super rich girl who lives in the castle, but a girl who is cherished as precious and loved.

Somehow it is even hard for me to believe in true love and fairly tales. How could a person like me be so loved and cherished? I am an ordinary girl (who's extraordinary crazy), imperfect, and actually I've made so many mistakes. Thank God, literally, I thank my God for making me a princess. A girl like me was redeemed, restored, and transformed.

"But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us." --Romans 5:8


I just want to remind you that Jesus is the Prince, not only in the fairly tale dream but in REAL LIFE. A prince laid his very life for us, princess! 
"This is how we know what love is: Jesus Christ laid down his life for us." 1 John 3:16a
His love for you and me is more than anything we could dream of. If you are still chained up at the bottom of the dungeon, Jesus Christ our prince can set you free.

A princess is one would leave ANYTHING behind and follow her true loving prince wherever he goes...


Lord, may you help us to leave everything behind and follow your will and walk in your way. May we do everything not from our own desires but for your righteousness and glory. Thank you for calling us yours and making us as white as snow. In jesus' name.  Amen.

Life is a rainbow...

Been going through 23 rainy seasons already, I am sometimes still considered as a young soul. I'm not sure at what age people say a life has begun. Some even say your life won't begin until you find your missing puzzle piece. Partly, I think that is true. My life, though, has started 23 years ago, but somehow it had never got close to being complete. Not til I found this one comfy place on the rainbow, I call it "Grace".

I do not like the rain, and I hate getting wet. Wandering around with my little umbrella, I ran for shelters the world offered from one to another. I seeked for acceptance and cried for attention. I felt secure when I looked like girls from the magazines. Makeup was so important that I could not live without. However, the acceptance and love the world gave me was so conditional and my happiness did not last. I yearned to be loved and cherished by a man who I tried to make him become the prince of my dream. Of course he failed me and I ended up hurting him greatly.
I believed in God and I loved him but I did not believe He was enough for me. I needed the 'extras' to perfect my princess dream.

Jesus is enough. The truest truth I simply ignored. He is my all in all. The acceptance I seeked is found here in Christ. No matter how ugly are the sins I commited, He sees me holy and beautiful. Jesus accepts me as who I am. He created me in his own image, beautiful and dignified. I'm not dependent on makeup or expensive clothes anymore. This is such a fresh understanding God's put into my heart. And for love, I see now that the relationship on earth is meant to be a reflection of the perfect intended fellowship that we have with God. Any mereman cannot fulfil all my needs. My truly desire is someone perfect, and Jesus Christ alone is perfect. Only He can fulfill my heart's desires. Psalm 107:9 says, "For He satisfiies the longing soul." Jesus became my Lord, my savior, my creator, my brother, my hope, my helper, my healer, my teacher, my example, my refiner, my purifier, my joy, my peace, my need, my wisdom, my all in all... Though His lavish grace, my very heart is satisfied.


My life is rainbow painted colorfully just for me by the one who created me, who knows me even more than I know myself. And at the end of the rainbow, one day, I'll see the love of my soul face to face.